Some interesting things happen to me in my life as of late.

I've finally finished my first chapter for a brand new fanfic after having so many ideas being stuck in my head. Because of pressures from school and big doses of self-doubt, I nearly came close to not writing anymore (with writer's block mixed in), leaving my other chaptered fics unfinished. But that never happened! Woohoo! It feels damn good to write on my own personal time again. I'm planning on posting it pretty soon.

This strong conscience appeared to me regarding to my abilities in everything I do. No matter how perfect I make things, people are still going to hate it. That alone, and advice from friends and loved ones, gave me plenty of reasons why I should keep going, but under my own terms from now on. If people don't like it, then who cares? I'm happy with my work.

The most amazing thing I've ever heard from my fiancé is his growing love for Visual Kei. We have been talking about Dir en grey, Janne D'Arc, Gazette, Vidoll, and others. XD Somehow, I feel like I must get him into more bands. XD

In my last entry I mentioned about having a near meltdown. But I've made a small list of things that can ease it away progressively or instantly and why:

1. Hetalia - instant randomness.
2. Mighty Mouse - Just hearing him sing "Here I come to save the day!" can soothe the soul.
3. Looney Tunes - Choose your favorite ones that can really make you laugh. My personal favorite: Duck Amuck.
4. Seeing J-Rockers act like complete dorks - a good "cheer up" mechanism.
5. Talk with a friend. Usually works. ^^

That's all I can name so far. More will come soon once I think of any more.

Ja ne pataters!


P.S. My fiancé asked me if I could post a part of his story on my journal. I told him I would. I'll be making a separate entry to that though.

Now that I managed to get most of my homework finished, I can finally relax. The only required assignment I have to do is read The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini. So far, it's growing depressing...horribly depressing. But that doesn't mean I'm going to stop reading. I'm curious about the ending.

For Dramas online, I've been glued to watching and finishing a J-Drama called LIFE. I will admit that some scenes were very painful to watch, especially when I've experienced what it's like being bullied as a child. However, it's really good. Now I want to read the manga since it focuses more on just the subject of bullying alone.

Last thing, I've changed layouts. Different look, same gorgeous Jin. :)

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I've been meaning to do this earlier, but real life came first, like inviting my old friend to visit at my apartment. This was my first time meeting her husband and beautiful children, and I really like them all. They really didn't stay long, but I wished that they did. But business came first with her mother, and I understand. It was great seeing them again though.

I finally managed to finish writing the transcript request and most of my application. The choice is still pending on which semester I wanna pack up and return to Alabama. At least I won't have to worry about living in the dorms any. They're hella expensive than the tuition and books combined.

Music news: Gazette just gave me a couple brand new favorite songs, which are Chizuru and Burial Applicant, next to Taion. Dolly is actually really good, much to my surprise. The same can go to -OZ- that's for sure. I have yet to listen to Anubis and Javelin, but I might do that later on tonight. SID always rocks! Natsukoi and PROPOZU are excellent songs to dance to. As for Dir en grey, you could say that I'm growing out of them. I'll always keep listening to the songs I think that are good from them.

I got a new art journal nammed nefertiti_crate. The whole thing is still under construction, but you're more than welcome to add it along with my writing journal songbird_swords.

That's all I can think of at the moment. More to come from me soon. :3

As you can see I now have a new layout for this month...and I love Alice Nine. Credit is on the page itself so no worries there.

I really must see reality for what it is, even if it's the most harshest environment I've ever seen in my entire life. I may be sensitive to some things, but there is a time and place that emotional outbursts may have to cease and focus them more on inspirations for art and writing. Well if it worked for me, it can work for anyone.

Last thing...I wonder if I should make a new journal for my art in case my DeviantArt page acts up. Any opinions?

...will I ever feel sorry for myself. I have now realized it's a waste of energy.
...will I ruin myself to oblivion. Lou believes that I can make it, but that doesn't change the fact he still acts like an insensitive jackass.
...will I remain a prisoner in my own apartment. I should try to get myself motivated and put myself out there to make friends.
...will I listen to negative criticism.
...will I be too judgmental.


We got to talking, even told him how I felt about him, and what made my evening that he admitted that he was controlling to a certain standpoint. But I'm still sticking to my word about giving the relationship one more chance.